The Princess of Public Safety

When I became EMS Chief in Côte Saint Luc, Toby naturally became the actual Chief.

But every Chief needs a morning routine.

And Toby’s routine started with Una.

Every morning, without fail, Toby would make his way toward the front office. Not casually. Not by accident. Deliberately. With purpose. With the quiet confidence of someone who knew exactly what he was doing.

He was not there to review reports.
He was not there to coordinate operations.
He was there for breakfast.

Una loved Toby. And Toby loved Una. There was a mutual understanding between them. A gentle affection that turned into one of the most adorable workplace rituals I have ever witnessed.

Now to be fair, Una did not always hand feed him. Toby had a bowl like a normal dog. He was perfectly capable of eating on his own.

But the station was busy. Phones ringing. Medics walking in and out. Radios chirping. Conversations happening everywhere. Sometimes Toby would get distracted by the activity and forget to focus on his food.

And that is when Una would step in.

She would sit near him, pick up one of his large nuggets, and gently offer it to him by hand to help him “refocus.” Not as indulgence. Not as permanent protocol. Just as a little encouragement when the world felt too interesting.

Toby would accept the nugget with exaggerated delicacy. Slow. Gentle. Intent. As if evaluating the culinary standards of the Côte Saint Luc EMS breakfast program.

It was impossible not to laugh.

There he was, a black standard poodle, sitting in the administrative office, being encouraged to eat like a visiting dignitary who needed personal attention during his meal.

Staff would walk by and shake their heads.

“Is he being hand fed again?”

Sometimes.

Only when necessary.

Only when distracted.

But Toby remembered.

And that is where the problem began.

Because after a full day of being gently encouraged to eat at work, Toby would come home.

Stephanie or I would place his bowl down. Proper portion. Balanced. Responsible.

Toby would look at it.

Then look at us.

Then look back at the bowl.

Then back at us again.

Those eyes.

The eyes of expectation.

The subtle tilt of the head that clearly said,
“I believe the service model has changed.”

He would sit and wait.

Not dramatically. Not aggressively. Just patiently. As if we had temporarily forgotten the correct feeding procedure.

I would look back at him with the most exaggerated expression I could manage.

“Absolutely not.”

Dude. No way.

You are a dog.

Sometimes he would try to hold out. A quiet protest. A hunger strike in hopes that standards would improve.

With me, it almost never worked.

With Stephanie… occasionally.

Just enough to reinforce his belief that the strategy was viable.

And so he tried.
Regularly.

Work Toby was gently assisted when distracted.

Home Toby attempted to renegotiate the terms of service.

Classic Toby.
Princess at headquarters.
Union representative at home.
Always testing the boundaries of royal privilege.

The Chief’s Dog

In January 2021, my professional life changed completely.
I became Chief of Côte Saint Luc EMS.
It was a job filled with responsibility, long hours, high pressure and constant unpredictability.

And with that promotion came a second, unspoken appointment.
If I was the new EMS Chief, then Toby was the real EMS Chief.

From the moment he walked into the station, everything shifted.
He was no longer just my partner.
He became everyone’s partner.

Toby learned the rhythm of EMS life immediately.
He came on call runs with me, although he preferred sleeping in the emergency SUV instead of participating in the actual work. He followed me from room to room like a shadow. He patrolled the hallways. He inspected offices. And he made sure any medic foolish enough to still be sleeping at nine in the morning received a wet poodle wake up call on the sofa.

The secretary fed him treats and brushed him during her breaks.
Dispatchers whispered hello to him like he was another member of the shift.
Crew members greeted him before they greeted me.
The students in training adored him.
The volunteers loved him even more.

He became our station’s dog.
He belonged to all of us.

And word spread outside the building too.

Police officers from the station next door came to take him for walks after difficult calls. It helped them decompress. They left with softer shoulders and lighter hearts.

Paramedics from Montreal EMS stopped by on their lunch breaks with biscuits, hoping Toby was around to brighten their day.

Even the director, a man who lived under impossible pressure during the pandemic, could not resist Toby. Toby regularly snuck into his office, curled up on the chair and snored so loudly you could hear him down the hallway. The director pretended to object. He never actually did.

And Toby helped the public too.

COVID calls.
Mental health emergencies.
Lonely people.
Scared families.

On one call, we struggled to escort a young patient outside. She was terrified, shaking, overwhelmed. Nothing worked.

Until Toby stepped forward.

He looked at her with calm eyes and a soft tail. She reached for him. He stepped closer. She breathed easier. And for the first time since we arrived, she stood up willingly because Toby was waiting for her at the door.

That was Toby.
Quiet care.
Pure heart.

Through every lick, every kiss, every cuddle, Toby became far more than my dog.
He became the station’s comfort.
A piece of joy people clung to in the darkest months of the pandemic.
A constant when everything else was collapsing.

And when he passed in September 2022, it was not just me who cried.
It was an entire EMS and Public Security family.
Paramedics. Dispatchers. Medics. Officers. Volunteers.
People who had held him, walked him, fed him, relied on him, laughed with him.
People who found light in him when the world felt unbearably heavy.

We lost more than a station dog.
We lost a beautiful soul who had cared for all of us in ways he never understood.

Through everything, my poodle became our poodle.
And his absence left a quietness in the station that will never feel complete.

Classic Toby.
Beloved by one family.
Beloved by many.

Toby and the Year the World Stopped

2020 was a year that changed everything.
For me.
For Stephanie.
For Amira, who was still growing inside her.
And for Toby, who faced the chaos with the soft strength only a dog can offer.

When the first wave of COVID hit Quebec, life turned into a constant blur. I was pulled from one emergency mandate to another, working as an emergency preparedness expert during the largest public health crisis of our time. Overnight, I was appointed as a direct advisor to the chief executive of Urgences santé. It felt like the responsibility of an entire city had landed on my shoulders.

The work never stopped.
Seven days a week.
From six thirty in the morning until midnight.
Every single day.
For months.

Stephanie was very pregnant then. She was carrying new life, carrying the stress of the pandemic, and carrying more of the household than anyone ever should have while expecting. Walking Toby became difficult for her. She needed rest.

And right there, in the middle of all this chaos, Toby stepped up in a way I will never forget.

He became the rhythm that kept me alive.

He allowed me to build a strict ritual around his needs. A ritual that forced me to stand up, move, breathe, go outside, and break away from crisis mode. A ritual that grounded me when everything else felt unstable.

Our days looked exactly like this:

6h30: Operational briefing.
7h30: Toby’s morning walk while I received my communications updates.
8h00: Prepare the executive briefing.
8h15: Present it to the CEO.
9h00: COVID data, partners, emergencies, decisions.
11h00: Toby’s second walk while I briefed directors.
11h50: Steering committee.
13h00: Toby’s afternoon walk while I reviewed new information.
13h30: Quebec Premier’s national briefing.
14h30: Communications summary.
15h00: Clinical oversight.
16h00: Partner follow ups.
16h30: Operational reviews.
17h00: Toby’s third walk while I spoke with the regional medical director.
17h30: More meetings.
18h00: Supper with Stephanie and Toby, usually while I stayed on a call.
18h30: More meetings with Quebec’s Ministry.
22h00: Prepare the next morning briefing.
23h00: Toby’s night walk.
23h30: Send the final briefing.

And then we did it again.

But Toby never lost track of the schedule.
He knew every minute of it.
He kept me accountable.
He kept me moving.

He would poke my leg with his nose the moment we reached the exact time for his walk. A soft reminder. A gentle nudge. A no-excuses signal for me to break away from the laptop and go outside.

He became the heartbeat behind my routine.

And then, in June 2020, Amira arrived.
Our world expanded.
Our exhaustion multiplied.
Our love deepened.

And Toby simply adapted.

He kept the routine.
He kept the timing.
He kept the structure.
But now, he allowed Amira to join in.

It was not a question or a worry.
It was natural to him.
His walks were no longer just for him and me.
They were for his little human too.

If I placed her carefully in her carrier or stroller, Toby walked beside her with a tenderness that felt almost sacred. He accepted her presence instantly, as if the routine had always belonged to the three of us.

It remains one of the most beautiful memories I have from that year.
There was fear everywhere.
Stress everywhere.
Uncertainty everywhere.
But there, on each walk, was a small moment of peace.
A father, his newborn daughter, and the poodle who kept them both grounded.

Toby was the constant in a world that had stopped.
The anchor in a year where time blurred.
The reason I kept moving when everything told me to collapse.

I will never forget what he gave me in 2020.

Classic Toby.
My metronome in the storm.
My partner through crisis.
My reminder that love can pull you through anything.